God, help me.

In my current situation, I'm doing all that I can to win my friend back.
I've written a letter to her parents, and I plan to deliver it to them once the new year has arrived.
And, in hopes I would get helpful input, I had my english teacher and said friend read the letter.
My teacher said it sounded very honesty and like it came from my heart, which it did.
My friend said it sounded fake and hypocritical.
I'm trying to discuss this with her currently, and it doesn't seem like it's going well.

I'm so anxious about all of this. She doesn't seem like she even wants to talk to me anymore. I haven't done anything but try to keep a relationship with her.
I'm terrified right now that all my efforts have gone to waste, and I truly have lost the best friend I ever had.
I don't understand why this would happen.
God put her in my life, and she was the best thing, and how he's taking her away from me.
I made one mistake, I misread feelings, and this happens.
I don't understand at all.

I'm really interesting, I promise.

My life has been full of crap lately, and it can make me seem like another one of those girls.
But I'm going to try to limit myself on ranting when it comes to that kind of thing, and just keep to the actual interesting parts of my life.

You can follow me at your own risk.